Finding My True Path?

I was always one of those Type A kids that always knew what I wanted to be when I grew up although it didn't agree with the vision of my parents.

From the time I was in the 2nd grade I wanted to be a writer. I loved to write little plays that the neighborhood kids would put on. We would assemble a series of milk cartons covered by a large piece of cardboard and the requisite sheet. We also would bug the different parents to string clotheslines so we had a curtain to open and close for each act.

I remember the first play I wrote. It was about the poor little country girl who travels to the city and one day becomes a huge success and marries the man of her dreams. Yeah, lame but what would you expect from a 2nd grade kid?

Around that time my dad decided I should grow up and be a professional musician. Which meant lots of piano, clairnet, guitar and organ lessons with tons of practice, practice, practice. I didn't particularly share his vision so I was not all that keen about the music part of my life but somehow I managed to thrive and figured all that keyboard work would help my typing.

Actually it did. By the time I got to high school and took keyboarding I was the fastest in my class. At least be chained to the piano helped me in school.

By the time I was in my senior year of high school I had decided the road to being a professional musician was not for me and business seemed a possibility although a little risky. I also decided being a full time writer was folly. I opted for a more practical path and decided to be a sociologist or psychologist. After all, I loved reading true crime books and studying people.

I actually got my degree in sociology with a minor in psychology with a few side trips into history which I adored.

Upon graduation my soc professor - Dr. Sol Sutker - nudged me gently into graduate school and helped me get a full time job (to help me pay my tuition) where I was instantly sucked (loud sucking noise) into doing programming. One minute I was analyzing statistics for various HUD programs and the next thing I knew I was writing SPSS and SAS programs.

Once that happened it was all over and I was sucked into a time tunnel lasting for several years where I found myself doing all kinds of MIS/IT/Software/UI related jobs.

The technology tunnel was fun and completely unpredictable. I finally emerged a certified female nerd working for a telephony company doing systems engineering on Voice Over IP projects, which by the way, involved lots and lots of writing. Technical style writing...but writing no less.

From that point I found myself again sucked mysteriously into a management path until I woke up one day and was on target to make director in a super high tech company. Probably a normal path for a major workaholic like me. Bizarre but true.

Having achieved so many things in my life (for which I am grateful), I was ready to dive into that strange new phenomenen - the Internet - and thus HairBoutique.com was born. I also co-founded T&S Software in 1995 which was in the telphony/telecommunications world. Thirteen years later both companies are thriving and my role as the CEO has been stressful yet fulfilling. I have to say I learn something new every day.

Recently I bumped into a psychic (long story for another day) who out of the clear blue starting telling me I had not yet fulfilled my true path. Huh? Seriously?

Geez, I have done so many things in my life including part time side jobs as an insurance salesperson, doing astrological and Feng Shui consultations, writing for lots of different publications, being a licensed massage therapist, running a small herb & aromatherapy business, doing both radio and cable TV programs on metaphysics and designing accessories. I also went to cosmetology school, learned advanced braiding and had a small catering company which did custom baking. Yeah...I'm a little nuts...I admit it.

What could this psychic be possibly talking about? "You need to be writing", she told me. Huh? I already write a lot. "Nope", she said. "Full time". "Everyday" until I "write what I'm supposed to". That, she said, "is your true path".

It sort of makes sense. I love to write more than anything else in the world other than maybe doing hair. Which probably explains why I found my way to penning thousands of articles about hair.

My Feng Shui teacher also told me something similar a few weeks ago when I was attending one of his advanced classes. And yes, my astrological chart has a loaded 9th house, if that means anything to anyone.

I will admit there are days I want to reinvent my life. It's not that I'm not happy. I am. I love both of my companies and my role as CEO, I just have days when I feel like maybe I need to be evolving in new directions. Or maybe I just need more Starbucks.

I'm not sure what all this means but here I am blogging about it. So maybe the more I write, the clearer the answer will become. Who knows? When I do, I'll let you all know.